Heya.

Heading back to school. Bound to interesting, but for once I have classes I'm actually inclined to learn so I'll have better luck this year.

Getting a new roomie too :/ she kinda scares me, BUT i will prevail.

this is short, but so what.

laterz

You change in front of me
Your eyes get darker every day
It happens quietly
Your focus slowly burns away
And if you let me hear
The things you seem to wanna say

I will wait to go
Until I know you're somewhere safe

And even if you chose
To lock yourself away
If I listen close
I can almost hear you say

Once I was real
Once I was somebody's child
Once I could feel
Some feeling once in a while
Once I was here
Once I was somebody's friend
Once I appear
I will be real once again

You're falling into it
An inescapable place
Or something intimate
Between the you that no one sees
Is there a way inside
You only hide from enemies
Cause I'll wait
I'm afraid you won't get rid of me so easily

And even if you chose
To lock the world away
If I listen close
I can almost hear you say

Once I was real
Once I had something to lose
Once I could feel
Once I was harder to bruise
Once I was here
Once I was willing to mend
Once I appear
I will be real once again

You're falling farther than
I've ever seen you fall before
For me to wonder when
I'll recognize you anymore
To see no light inside your eyes at all
To bang my head against the wall
And force myself to watch you fall away

And even if you chose
To lock the world away
If I listen close
I can almost here you say

Once I was real
Once I was somebody's child
Once I could feel
Some feeling once in a while
Once I was here
Once I was somebody's friend
Once I appear
I will be real once again

Once I was real
Once I was somebody's child
Once I could feel
Some feeling once in a while
Once I was here
Once I was somebody's friend
Once I appear
I will be real once again

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I couldn't help him...
I couldn't help him find a reason...
I couldn't save him...

maybe he's better now............

Cuz i really want school to be done already. I'm so tired of it. All of it. -le sigh- I'm to the point where i'm being terrible and not even putting effort into things anymore. O.O and that's been building up which=bad.

On a good note, Thanksgiving=Awesome Food. so im excited for that. And then less than a month for break (although there is finals...uh oh). meh....

i'm feeling...very indifferent to everything. Possibly because I don't understand how I'm even in the conscious, waking world. Every night (including weekends) I get about 4 or less hours of sleep....i just keep having bad dreams, and like a sudden shot of adrenaline in my system the second I turn my light off.

So can't I just fast forward the next 4 years of my life and get it over with?

was stolen.

How sad. But I also had found my chapstick. So now my life is almost complete. Now if only i could beat up whoever took my milkshake.

mmmm

chocolate....

this is relatively boring not to metion a waste of time and space.

I'm glad i could take up 10 seconds of your life.

i win.

<3

Hello August.

Goodbye most of summer. ^^ least that's how it's starting to feel. Frankly I'm terrified for college. Sure, there's going to be some great things....but I'm just scared I guess. I don't have a place to live yet. I'm actually going to visit for the first time this weekend. It's bound to be an adventure. I'm sorta of excited. Not because I'm going to see it. But it's going to be just me and my dad. That hasn't happened for a long time. I hardly see my father any more. It was a sudden and weird change until one day i finally noticed it and my summer was almost over.

*sigh* I love this song. I keep letting it play over and over again. I don't even know what it's called. It's the background music for the Extras on a DVD movie i own. It's just a piano. And so....calming and sad.

^^ I adore it.

Haven't painted in forever. *laughs* Probably one of things I miss most. I have no where to paint for one, and oddly enough my inspiration has vanished. I hope i get it back. It's so odd not being able to watch the colors mesh into a coherent thought. Like watching it melt out onto the canvas from a vault in my dreams.

I never know what I'm going to paint. And I never know what it is until I feel like it's finished.

Nothing too eventful in my life. My grandmother is sick though. And my sister might be. I only found out that a few days ago. I havent updated on anything for me.

My friend's family has moved away, but she decided to stay here i think until she has to go away to college too. *smiles* Going away to college. Everyone is going away to college. I guess it won't be so bad with the technologies we have today. The computer, and phones, and hell even old fashioned letters. Still...it obviously won't be the same.

Family is same ol' same ol'. Not much there. I don't have a job anymore. That's one thing i'm in desperate need. It sucks not having money ^^ I had forgotten what it was like not to have it.

Went camping this last weekend with some of my closest friends. Probably be the last time for a while until we're all together agian. It was amazing fun. We even made a gang and such. Just because we're that cool.

Well I guess that's all for now for a head-drop low down for me.

*shrugs*

<3 Toodle Pip