Hello August.

Goodbye most of summer. ^^ least that's how it's starting to feel. Frankly I'm terrified for college. Sure, there's going to be some great things....but I'm just scared I guess. I don't have a place to live yet. I'm actually going to visit for the first time this weekend. It's bound to be an adventure. I'm sorta of excited. Not because I'm going to see it. But it's going to be just me and my dad. That hasn't happened for a long time. I hardly see my father any more. It was a sudden and weird change until one day i finally noticed it and my summer was almost over.

*sigh* I love this song. I keep letting it play over and over again. I don't even know what it's called. It's the background music for the Extras on a DVD movie i own. It's just a piano. And so....calming and sad.

^^ I adore it.

Haven't painted in forever. *laughs* Probably one of things I miss most. I have no where to paint for one, and oddly enough my inspiration has vanished. I hope i get it back. It's so odd not being able to watch the colors mesh into a coherent thought. Like watching it melt out onto the canvas from a vault in my dreams.

I never know what I'm going to paint. And I never know what it is until I feel like it's finished.

Nothing too eventful in my life. My grandmother is sick though. And my sister might be. I only found out that a few days ago. I havent updated on anything for me.

My friend's family has moved away, but she decided to stay here i think until she has to go away to college too. *smiles* Going away to college. Everyone is going away to college. I guess it won't be so bad with the technologies we have today. The computer, and phones, and hell even old fashioned letters. Still...it obviously won't be the same.

Family is same ol' same ol'. Not much there. I don't have a job anymore. That's one thing i'm in desperate need. It sucks not having money ^^ I had forgotten what it was like not to have it.

Went camping this last weekend with some of my closest friends. Probably be the last time for a while until we're all together agian. It was amazing fun. We even made a gang and such. Just because we're that cool.

Well I guess that's all for now for a head-drop low down for me.

*shrugs*

<3 Toodle Pip